The guilt of happiness...after losing Milla sadness overwhelmed me. It still does. As hours turned into days, weeks and months I found reason t smile, laugh or sing. Life, carrying on. At first it felt strange. Emotions of happiness I had not felt for so long. It felt wrong, how could I smile laugh and sing when Milla was no longer here. But then I understood. Milla would not be smiling at me if she knew I was always sad. he would want me to be happy. remember her, be happy and live life.